I've actually wondered a lot recently if my T might actually get something from the exchanges between us. I kind of think she does...but then again that just might be wishful thinking. I know at the very least some of my emails make her laugh...she might miss that when I'm gone. :-)

Comments about termination always make me think...How am I really going to do it. Allow myself to feel the grief, but not look like an ***. But also not diminish the whole experience by just saying, "It was nice knowing ya, bye."

His firing comment would have rocked my therapy world. But, I think you know he wasn't meaning to make you question your relationship. I hope at some point you are able to explore ALL of your feelings about your relationship including those related to termination without worrying that just having the discussion itself will somehow start the termination process. For me I think this is the main reason I avoid talking specifically about my therapuetic relationship...I feel my talking about it will some how F*** it up.