I have the first of my last two sessions tomorrow. The second one on Wednesday, then I move on Thursday. I was feeling really stressed out but now I feel numb. I feel like there is too much to do and not enough time. I feel like I'm being pulled in a dozen different directions just because some of the things can't get packed until the night I leave which means I have to know exactly how much room stuff will take up.

I don't want to leave my T. I want her to jump in my suitcase and come with me. I want to ask my T if I come back if I can see her again, but I'm really scared. I'm scared that she will say no and then I will feel all alone. I don't want to feel alone... I don't want to have to go through the process of trusting someone again. My T and I have worked so hard, I don't know if i can go through it all again.