Ah, good ol' clonazepam. Makes me wonder why, if Lamictal is supposed to make you drowsy, do you need sleeping pills on top of it to get and stay asleep? I got 6.5 hours last night, but I feel like ****. I did work today, but still...I could fall asleep in this chair and I've had nothing...not alcohol, not lamictal, not the sleeping pills.

Sometimes I'm mad at my body...mad at my brain that it won't let me lead a fulfilling existence on its own. I know my attitude about the whole thing needs to change, but I'm still debating whether I'm ill or just moody. I totally fit the profile for bipolar, but I hate the process of getting "well." It's not like my depression, mania, or suicidal thoughts are going to go away by moving again or traveling (my typical "solution"). Too drowsy to make any sense right now.

How you doin' today?