I so feel the same way, I really do know how you feel. But here it is: we are fighters of an illness that wants to take over our thoughts, our minds, our happiness, our concentration, it wants all we have. I feel sometimes that it is winning and I have no way out. But there is a way we just have to stay together and find it. You are here posting, you are fighting. We are fighting together. I am so sorry you are feeling this way, believe me I do understand. Hugs for your day.