thank you (((all)))

thank you so much for supporting us. appreciate it very much.

if i could, i would cry happy tears right now

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twilight et al


the following text is going to be triggering so please skip if you're in a bad mood, i'll even put it in a small font.

initially i thought i was going crazy, and especially when my psychiatrist and psych nurse are saying this is psychotic, and body memories are hallucinations. in a way they are, but not in the psychotic sense. "where do you want me to stick ya?" lol.

last night i recognize a big issue with abandonment, and it is so synchronistic with the current situation (parents are not contacting me and i'm trying to hang onto them even though i hate them) and the memory... it's freaking me out because this is what they use as a special interrogation technique for war criminals, terrorists. and from what i can tell this is not done to me by my parents. they've abandoned me and let another person hurt us.