Background
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I am not exactly sure where to post this, so I thought I post it here. I am a married man and have a daughter who is just a few months old. I secretly got in to an affair with one of my colleagues at work. No one knows about this except the both of us but people at work have their doubts because of our body language when we are with each other. This has been going on for about 6 months now but the fact is that she never really loved me till about a couple of months back. She also had other affairs going on even when she was with me.

Many times I have felt that she is lying to me and I have told this to her openly as well. When ever I persisted, she would open up a bit and admit to that particular lie in discussion. At times her lies would be totally unnecessary and unrelated to either of us, like a death in her family or some one's illness etc. I believed I could change her and be a positive influence on her. I succeeded. She changed and she opened up her heart to me. She told me everything about her right from her childhood, all her affairs and the extend of those relationships and how she was just playing around with their lives for no reason. She never really loved any of those guys and just went it with the flow of things. It was as if she was a total flirt and she would accept a proposal from any one. But now she changed all that and loves me sincerely from all her heart.

She even told me that she was on Clomipramine for about 6 years now. She is 21 now and taking 100mg per day. I asked if she knew what it was for and she said she had no idea what it was so she stopped taking it a couple of weeks ago. We searched on the internet and found out that it shouldn't be stopped without consulting a doctor. So we decided she will continue again and she agreed she will. (Later on she told me that she hadn't started taking it yet because it was not available)

The Problem
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I made a huge mistake by doubting her again. I doubted her and felt she is lying again and told her that I don't want to continue the relationship with her because I lost hope in her. She threatened me that she will kill herself if I left her because I meant more than her life to her. Obviously I was hurt with the thought that she is continuing to lie to me repeatedly. So I was really rude to her when she said she is going to die. At that point, all I could think of was that I deserved to be treated like that for cheating on my wife.

The following day I came to know that she had tried to commit suicide. Her parents had heard her and they broke open the door to find her hanging. They got her off and she reacted very violently. Destroying almost everything in her room and screaming out loud. She was immediately taken to a psychiatrist. They had to administer electric shock and after a while she regained her senses later on in the day.

I was shattered when she rang me up later in the day and she told me what happened. She said she can not live without me and she will try to kill herself again so that I can live happily with my family. She is scheduled to see a psychiatrist for further treatment. She is in such a bad state and probably because of her mental health, she could even tell everyone about our relationship.

Now I don't know what to do. I don't want her to die. I want her to live and be happy. I really care for her and I love her as well but at the same time I can never leave my wife and family. They mean a lot to me too and I am a very respected person in society. I am not the type that would cheat on my wife and I was not looking for an affair because my wife means so much to me. I could sense this lady was in a mess when I met her and I only thought of helping her out and to help her get out of her meaningless life. We both didnt reallze how or when we fell for each other. It just happened.

I even told her what I am going through and she said she doesn't want anything more from me than my love. She promised she will never come between me and my family and never ruin my life. All she is asking me is for my love. She is alright with the fact that we can't be together in public and society but when ever we are alone together, she wants us to behave like husband and wife.

Now that she is going through this mental crisis, I am really scared for her. What is she going through. Will she improve with treatment. What should I do.

I AM COMPLETELY LOST. HELP!!!!