Thank you for all your encouraging posts.

Yeah, my husband left it on when he went upstairs to bed. They didn't show the inside of the house, so there probably is more to the story, but that has been one of me fears for a long time. To hear it on the news really got me going.

I hardly ever clean my house and I hate it when someone asks me to use the bathroom because with a husband a nd a 7 year old boy, they often miss the target. (no offense to guys out there it just happens in my house for sure)
Neither of them clean it up. The little guy is still in diapers and on a hot day, nothing contains the smell. Not even the diaper genie. We keep bananas on the counter becaus they turn black in the fridge and the kids won't eat them if they are black so we get fruit flies.
I only occassionally pick up the toys, I never pick up my clothes, and most days the sink is full of dishes until my husband gets home and he usually helps me out there. If someone came over around noon, they would see my house at its worst, and I am afraid one of my neighbors may really value a clean house and call DSS on me and I would lose my kids.

It is a fear I have always had, and how sick is it that it doesn't motivate me got get my s*** together and clean up around here?

Maybe as a gift, I could get someone to help me clean up and then maybe I could maintain it... who knows. Maintenance is not my strong suit either.

OK, I'll stpo posting now. I am realizing I am very down and I don't want to sit here complaining. Sorry about that.