((((jewels)))))
the road to recovery is really really hard and sometimes even harder...
take a break, do something for YOU, have some fun...
get a bottle of bubbles and blow bubbles and watch them float and glisten in the sun..
if you have flowers just sit among them or if not, buy yourself a bunch of cut flowers or a small flowering plant. flowers are great listeners and love music and to be talked to....
if you like chocolate, make finger paints out of instant chocolate pudding made with water instead of milk. lick fingers often
play a kid game or read a funny book or just take a nap under a tree.....
these are much more fun than giving up and restore the soul so much better.

also, re-read your signature.....you have some very wise and uplifting "jewels" there.