Mental health can be a mindfield, a scary one, where one wrong choice can send you down a path that leads to a dark place, where you have found yourself....

Take care of YOU, get therapy, take care of yourself as if YOU are the person who needs a little reaching out, to.....

Decisions will come when you are in a better place, mentally, emotionally, spiritually..

Right focus on your health, therapy, and keep posting here, I care and I do not judge

We are all human and have all made poor choices many times, your was no poorer than a woman who cheats and/or someone who just reaches out to help another and falls in love in the process........