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Aug 19, 2009, 07:30 AM
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Member Since: Jan 2009
Posts: 275
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For the last 23 yrs I have been with the same man
no matter how he treated me I stayed
He never hit me but he would yell at me and call me names
make me feel about 2 inches tall at times
and all though I should not be surprised my daughter is the same
she tells me that I am an ab**er no better then my f***er
(if she only knew the half of it)
so 2 weeks ago I packed up and I left brave move no
my son informs me that all I have done is take the
cowards way out and run,I swear I tried to work things
with my daughter at least all to no avail she just hates me
pure and simple and I know they are expecting me to go
back and there is a part of me that says yes you should
you are no better then your own mother she left and look at you
look what she left you to
but then there is another side of me that says you deserve better
better then all of this but do I........
I am so afraid of being alone and yet I am afarid to go back
I am crying a lot and I want to be held but not like he would
I wish my aunty was still here I miss her tenderness so much
I am so lost I just do not know what to do next.
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