I really do. My friends call to check on me and they invite me to go out with them. I have'nt heard from my family in a few years. Even my own sister don't want to talk to me. When my son was in the hospital with a rare and almost fatal diesese, none of my family came or offered prayer two of my aunts called only to tell me I didnt care about my other son because I did'nt call my grandmother to check on him and the reason my little one was sick was because of the way I acted years before and it was God's way of punishing me. I'm like, my 18 month old son may be dying and you call with this crap?? Oh well. I am better off without them. All they ever wanted to do is put me down anyway. They had a big family cookout this past weekend. My whole family was there but no one told me about it. I don't care. Let them be like that. At least I can say I tried.