Okay. Glad to hear you've got a goal. One day at a time. Sometimes, one hour or minute at a time.

I think like that too. "I can't go to the hospital because I have work next week and my boss really needs me to be there as out of control as my moods are." And I make it through the trench of that day, then the next day is not quite as horrible, I get a sleep aid, then the day after that is even more tolerable.

Parents' night is a good goal, but if you need help before then (like having uncontrollable ideation), don't delay going to the hospital.

I believe in you.

None of us are perfect but we do want to get well and feel well again. Sometimes it just feels hopeless, like we'll never get to that point, and that's when it's tempting to give up. I feel like I'm just on life support half the time with my meds and therapy. But it won't always be like this.