I have been talking with someone for a cpl months now. We had our first date. It was fun relaxed and overall went well. I like this guy and I even put off cutting myself so if things go forward he won't see fresh cuts. I've been doing fairly well with the whole thing. I know as it gets more serious the more I'm going to freak. New things are hard for me let alone letting someone into my inner sanctum. I haven't let anyone in for along time and am slightly afraid. I dnt want him to see my wild mood swings but they will come out eventually and I will have to explain I'm bp. I hate that part to. Why do I even have to say anything. I dnt even know why I'm fretting so. It was just one date but we have a 2nd soon. And we talk every day and have talked every day for a few months. Its ok I'll be ok. I hope thanks for letting me go on and on I just needed to let it out.