Kimmydawn'

your right it is too much. i know how it gets almost like a physical assault to be invaded with all that in your head at once. In this forum i had the flashbacks to 77 but i want to tell you there was a reason for it. . . first it was time and it was safe enough that it could happen- but also the %#@&#! was wrapped in the youthfull strength and and anger i was going to need dealing with my fathers death- so if youre being allowed to see more then for some reason some good qualities are riding in with the horror- because they come attatched you know. . .just try to trust it as defensive overall and ultimately beneficial and good news that its safe enough to have allowed it in. im speaking for myself and trying to relate hope about something highly personal that no one can know but hope all goes well for you all.