Lost71, tryingtobeme and skeski thank you for responding and letting me know i'm not losing it and alone. I'm sorry ya'll go through the same thing and i hope it stops.

I guess i probably should say something to my t. She's very nice and understanding. But she does push often. I could just tell her i am having them but say im not ready to get into it. She's told me a few times its going to get worse before it gets better. Its been worse for awhile now. I would like to be able to talk about it. I just don't know if i can.