I have kind of a weird question to ask. I've been seeing my t for several years now. And we've worked significantly on helping me develop trust and a secure relationship with her. There have been a few moments when i've truly felt a good connection and alot of trust. But here's the problem: I can't seem to get a sense of continuity. What i mean is that i can't seem to put together the individual sessions in order to create a feeling inside myself that this is, and has been, a continuous relationship of trust building over time. For some strange reason (particularly after a rupture but other times too), it feels like each session is it's own separate thing and the interactions of that session only belong to that day. Then, the following week, that session is separate. The relationship feels good or bad based on whatever happened at the most recent session. Somehow, i can't see the big picture. So i never do develop a secure attachment based on years worth of separate interactions that i should be able to combine to form a lasting connected relationship. It feels like we keep starting over again.

Does this make sense to anybody? Has anybody had this problem? What would cause this? Is this a dissociation thing? It's very confusing to me.