(((((((((((((((deli)))))))))))))))

Well, to address the first part of your post....YES. TOTALLY. I can go into T feeling all sunny, or even basically okay, and something about being there....maybe it's the "space" he gives me with silence sometimes, or the knowledge that he knows everything, or the caring way he sits there and looks at me, or???? But yeah, things tend to totally hit me in the middle of session.

In a way, I kind of *hope* that's how it's supposed to work...that I can feel okay in my real life, and deal with the bad feelings there. At the beginning of therapy, I'd feel HORRIBLE in normal life and then see T and since I like him so much, feel like "oh, everything's fine now!" and then leave and feel like crap again. If I have to feel those feelings, I'd rather feel them there, you know?

Don't know if it helps, but you're definitely not alone