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imapatient · Aug 20, 2009, 10:03 AM

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Originally Posted by deliquesce

part 1: on topic part of the post! if you are going to read & respond, please just read this.
does anyone else get this? not really feeling sad... or feeling that things are difficult, but that "depressed" sort of feeling (even if it doesn't last for more than a few hours)... loss of hope, futility in everything etc. i can have a really great day, go into therapy all excited about the possibilities about what we will accomplish, just not get things... working right... and bang - i'm there, i've clammed up, i'm feeling depressed, trying not to cry, wondering whether i should just leave the session before it's over because there is nothing in it for me.

would appreciate any advice, but even knowing i'm not alone with this would help.

Deli,

I totally relate. T's have said to me that it's because you're there usually addressing difficult, painful, and negative/sad/depressing issues. You don't need therapy for happiness.

So by digging into those things you get down, feel pained, etc. It's a short-term pain/long-term gain thing. It's hard work, emphasis on both hard and work.

I've been getting really down during recent sessions. Start off high, or start feeling better, and then the boom drops. I also drift away, or dissociate though I'm not DID, when getting to the trauma roots. T says it's just so hard for me to hear that I tune out so that I don't literally hear or think about it. Negative feelings accompany those episodes.

It's normal.

I'm ignoring the rest of your post for now (didn't read).