Definitely sounds like depression. This illness of ours may be triggered by an external event (or not), but it has a life of its own little or not at all affected by our circumstances.

If you have a broken leg, I can bring you flowers, but you're still going to have a broken leg.

I'm glad for you, Berries, that you have things in your life you recognize as good. When the depression lifts, even only a little, those good things may comfort you.

Oh, and thank you for being one of the good things in the lives of the people who share this forum!