Thank you so much for this advice

and a special thanks to rohag and marjan for such nice advice, I really liked how it was in the form of a list. I feel like maybe I can tackle each one of the things you mentioned one at a time and hopefully it will make me feel better.

And 3velniai you make a really good point about doing what I want to do, I guess that makes sense because I've been trying to approach this scientifically but maybe I should just do what I want

Bluebird: thanks for the advice on bringing a spark back into my life, I definitely need to do that.

I don't know: It's okay that you don't have any advice, but a hug is just as good