Hi all! Maybe this isn't quite the right place for this thread, but you are the ones that know me best, so I wanted to share it with you. I answered a personal ad a few weeks ago, proceeded very carefully, and guess what, he wants to stick around! It's been 28 years since I've been even close to a man, so this is quite mind-boggling! He's sweet, very open and honest, has been told about the SA and DID and he is not concerned about what I've shared. It really blows me away. I know this may not last forever, probably will not, as neither are seeking that, but for as long as it lasts, I feel very blessed and happy. The truth is that I've been suicidally depressed for a couple of years now, and am not on any antidepressants because I am thoroughly treatment resistant, this is giving me something, someone new and positive to focus on instead of only how miserable I am. So I wanted to share my joy with my friends here at PC.
Also, was blown away yesterday by my psychiatrist who offered me on-going weekly therapy! I've been without a therapist for a year and a half. I have a few misgivings about it, but I'm going to give it a try. I just hope it doesn't stir up to much "stuff" and create crises. Don't want that, especially now. I think there will be a focus mainly on the depression. He does not know a lot about DID. At this point, that may be a good thing. And my fella picked me up from my appointment, took me home and made me dinner!!!!!
Anyway, I hope you all will be happy for me, and know that I still need you. We live tough and complicated lives every single day, and i wish all of you could and will find a little joy once in awhile, as i am experiencing right now. for my very precious dissociative family!