Thank you both for your replies.......and support. I am a bit like an Echidna or a porcupine......I roll into myself as protection......

I have never really questioned why or how, just that it is......

maybe as one gets older, more mature or some such thing, reflection becomes more apparent.......not sure, just a thought.

Thanks again.......don't feel so "suspicious" now......glad I spoke of it outside of the therapists office.

Big Hugs.....

Michah