My relationship history is horrible. I've never had a good, healthy relationship. One was abusive, one couldn't handle me and one I was obsessed with for 7 years after he dumped me. If he had given in, I probably wouldn't have been interested any longer, but I don't know.

And here comes the good guy. Treats me like a princess, I've never felt so feminine in my life. He wants to take care of me and protect me and he loves me unconditionally.

And all I do is complain, give him crap, and find I'm not happy. Why? This is what I want, but why is this not working? We argue a lot, but he doesn't think that's a problem. It really bothers me. I get very mad at him at least once a day. I am annoyed by him a lot. WHY? WHY? WHY?

He's great. I want to really want to be with him. Make sense?

Everyone is so happy for me. People congratulate me all the time and I am just like "yeah....".

I wonder if it's my mind games. If I like the chase and only really like people who don't approve of me, because I don't approve of myself?

He loves me unconditionally and I hate myself, always have. So his unconditional love annoys me at times. When I accuse him of cheating or pick on him about every little thing he does that annoys me, he still loves me and takes it all in stride. And yet that annoys me.

But I know that as soon as he acts like he doesn't want me or is loosing interest....I latch on like a leach.

WTH is my problem?

Girls swoon over this guy. I have competition and yet he chooses me. I don't get it.

So why am I not head over heels in love and happy?