(((((Phoenix)))))

I'm so sorry about your kitty. I know it must really hurt. You are probably in shock, shutting down, and going inside yourself because staying aware of your feelings of grief would hurt too much. Our bodies and minds have that way of trying to protect us from pain. I know you feel numb, but for right now, it's OK if that's what you need to do. Even if you can't feel the connection with t, keep the contact. Sit quietly without talking if you need to. Don't force anything. . .but don't let t go either. I know it's SO, SOOO hard to lose a pet. But you're going to be OK.