Welcome uhhidk to PC!

I agree with Rohag. You should try and seek professional help outside of your family and friends. A school councilor would be perfect if it is available to you.

In the meantime, please keep posting here on PC. The people here are awesome--supportive, empathetic, and wise. We are always ready to listen to what you have to say, even if you are just ranting or venting. And we will ALWAYS believe you.

Take Care and please try to be safe.