Part 1:
Deli, if you can realize while in session that something happened there that made you feel depressed, that is in a way a good thing--you are in touch with your feelings and can experience them in the moment. When I have had something in therapy make me feel hopeless, I don't realize it at the time and I just suddenly find myself in the days following being very depressed. And I don't know why. It seems so random. I'm getting better at figuring it out and feeling it sooner. What I do if I can figure it out, is tell T in the next session that something in a previous session made me feel hopeless. And then we talk about that and work on it. Sometimes it comes out in my dreams and we do dream analysis to try to get to the core of what is bothering me. I do think the most important part it to tell your T. I don't think Ts intend to make us feel hopeless so would want to know this.

Part 2
Deli, is the part 2 with Austin T what made you feel hopeless? (I wasn't sure if there was a connection between the parts.) His behavior seemed over the top to me and I am not sure how he would respond if you told him you felt hopeless because of what he did. Would that be important to him? Would he want to discuss it and work through it? You have said before that you only work on uni stuff with Austin T. But if he is making you feel hopeless, can you shift away from uni briefly to deal with that? I don't think it will be that helpful if Austin T is making you feel hopeless but yet pdoc is the one you work on this with. It seems like if Austin T is part of the problem, he needs to be part of the solution.

You have said before that Austin T is OCD. It sounds like he was really out of control with that during your session. It's fine if he wants to be OCD about his own stuff, but about his clients' stuff??? You have also mentioned that recently Austin T started a new job. Perhaps he is stressed about that and his anxiety is exacerbating his OCD. I think he really should be informed of this, so he can rein himself in. Can you tell him how you experienced his behavior? (Would he listen?)