(((((( Miss A )))))))

Ty ... yes I need to get those for my son...and just a ton of other things done for him and myself.

It's extremely hard about my b/f ...and the thing of it is...it's not "him" that wants to go ...as he explains it to me... yes he has the thoughts and the battle as I guess many of us go through, but there comes a point when he literally isn't in control, and that is really sad.

He becomes unaware...this hasn't happened often, but enough that it's become a dangerous and upsetting situation.

Hopefully he can get the help he really needs. Like he had said to me recently ... if he at this point didn't want to be here ...he wouldn't be...no matter who was watching him. He's here because of "him". Even though his thoughts are dark. It's just a struggle. He will walk around constanly saying aloud "I'm alright .. I'm alright" ... when I think about that...it just saddens me. *shrugs*

Anyways... just trying to let things out so they don't pile up on me. Do the long list of things I have to do, which is way more then I've listed...it seems overwhelming to me...also probably because I'm not well physically and mentally.

So I'll try to do what I have to to stay on track because I'm realizing it's getting bad and I'm slipping and I know I don't want that.

Anyways, ...thanks for listening...and your response and support

Thank you.

Hope you are well and feeling better.

Take care
Eva