I have to echo what Alaskan says. Even though sometimes I feel this all must be a clever mental illusion created by my morally defective subconscious to justify laziness, I keep running into myself as if into a wall. Something definitely is wrong.

From your post it appears you have determined that at least one of your medications - regardless of the "a-psy" label normally attached to that medication - actually 1) helps you get to sleep and 2) relieves you of unwanted thoughts. The fact it does these things for you indicates at the very least two of your problems are real and not at all faked.

Whatever you decide to do, you already have two hard facts. I hope you can develop a relationship with your doctors whereby they will cooperate with you in experimenting with your meds in a safe, carefully monitored manner. You deserve to feel and live better.

Oh, third hard fact: PC loves Berries!

PS: If wasting resources troubles you, don't go into government...