I don't think you're neither a liar nor a faker.
If there's something that never lies, that's pain. Suffering is always real... it's not questionable.

I can't give you any advice, because I have no way of knowing what you should do.. I don't know your situation... But I care. So whatever you decide, I truly hope it will be the right thing to do... And I hope you'll feel better soon

Take care