we too wish your h was nicer to you and that you had some places of safety to recharge and allow your inside parts their time and space.

we wish your h would care and not be angry with you as well.

please know that even though it is hard to live that living is worth it. if others have been able to find workable paths through this I believe that you and yours can as well. i do not say that lightly to you and yours but in recognition of your hard work and your determination in keeping at this and making the changes that will ultimately allow your parts a better chance at harmony. you've been doing this work we just need to find you more avenues of support to help you continue doing this work. there is no failing on your parts at all!! this is gritty stuff that most are afraid to get near.

I believe your parts will find their ways with gentle support.