Lonelyperson, what do you want? What things fascinate, please, and fulfill you without reference to anyone else? If you could shut off the external and even internalized voices of others telling you what you should want, what would the real Lonelyperson tell you?

By the way, “I don't know” is an acceptable answer. If that's the case, then you might consider some adventuring to discover possible answers – and there may be more than one.

Wishing you a future filled with happy excitement and not fear!