How good it is that we are recognizing how other things in our childhood, besides the trauma, linger with us...
It's things like this that help me see there were a myriad of ways for us to be controlled and belittled by the adults in our young lives. Jmo/jme, but sometimes these things will surprise me...not in a bad way, more like an Ah-Ha! moment so that's why I do this or that...does that make sense??

There were other admonishments that will give me pause at times.
Examples;
When you laugh before noon, you'll cry in the afternoon.
Don't be "too" happy because you'll bring bad luck and break the good time.

The "too happy" popped up last night.
The seafood buffet was outstanding...I mean really, really good. Had to force myself to eat dessert .
The dancing at our next stop was nostalgic and brought back good memories...we didn't break dance, etc. in the dark ages, but we sure had some movements of our own.
Open mike was breath taking...a sexy bald man played his guitar while softly singing his own lyrics/poetry. No one would follow him, in fact with some shyness he continued to our delight.
The three of us were walking back to my car, the streets were still shimmery from the rain, the gaslight lamp posts were wow-s, and the sculptures along the walk were funny and sweet and unusual...
When I thought of how relaxed and content I was, immediately the too-happy gremlin hit me. GIGO and FO escorted it from my mind, replaced it with gratitude.

For the h*ll of it, along with my jeans and t-shirt, I wore three strands of pearls......no pantihose, though.

Recognition of these things and shaking them off, easier to do most days.

When this happens to you, if it does, what is your reaction?
Anger that it's yet another thing to work through, relief for some understanding gleaned from it, sadness for the time wasted when in ignorance we blamed ourselves ...

All three? Them and more?

In Peace