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Phew good to know there is someone out there that it hasn't affected the friendship. I can't see where it can hurt since we are like best friends, talk and or hang out all the time. There is only one other person that I have been sexually attracted to and it was a good friend. We did act on it, and it was tough at first because it brough back all the feelings that use to be there. But he and I are still friends. He is married.
This guy....I don't know what it is about him?? Can't stop thinking about him and or being with him like that. He seems to think that because I have never "been with someone like him" that I won't be able to walk away. If I really though there was a chance that I couldn't walk away I wouldn't even think about it. Wouldn't do anything for my depression and I don't want to go back down that road. I just want the fun and is there anything wrong with that??
I have been sexually abused and raped and for the longes time I was lucky that I even wanted to do anything and when in a relationship I'm still very hesistant and shy and won't do anything right away, but this is different. Normally I would feel cheap and like I'm I don't know.....
Sorry got off topic.....
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