Its been hectic. I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling right now. I'm sad for sure. But my mind has clarity right now. That bothers me. The anxiety is a big problem for me right now. I'm not sure if I can be counted as being down or up bcz I feel a ltl of both right now and its really hard being pulled in two directions. My brain actually hurts. Not a normal headache. A brain ache.