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Okay well my medications aren't working for anything right now. I really need them to work because I am 30 weeks and 2 days pregnant now. I need them because I have M.D.D aka major depressive disorder and PTSD. I really need my anti-depressants or else i will become really really depressed and then will need to do the ECT treatments again. Although the ECT treatments seemed to help better than the medications. Right now it just seems like the world is a extremely dark and lonely place. All I want to do is just sit in a corner and cry, scream and so on. I have also started up with the SIB which I so wish I hadn't. My mood is sad and angry at the world. I just want to cry and cry and cry. I want to give up my life but part of me can't because of the little baby inside of me. My thoughts are just constantly racing and not making much sense. Maybe after I deliever this baby things will be better.....IDK. Need some advice....
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