Thanks for asking seeker, Linda and me had a very long talk yesterday. i told here that no matter what the outcome no matter if we stopped seeing each other , became friends, or had this amazing romance. No matter what In this time and Place she is loved. My feeling for her were real and genuine and all the other stuff was just that stuff.
She tends to get into her head and start analyzing every little word. She has spent many years studying Eastern spirituality and Thought. She would go on with new age babble. In the end she does not trust those words"I love you" That's understandable. since the beginning of time men have used those words to get women into bed. I'm sure some caveman used that line one to many times on some cave woman. When she wised up to his lie. She got smart and started the worlds oldest profession. think about that next time your watching The Flintstones.
There's a funny line that sums up that one aspect of male, female relationships " Of Course i love you. Now take off your Dress so I can prove it."
i explained to Linda that My feeling were real. That this love was new and it did need the test of time. It would take a lot of care and nurturing.
Being able to love to feel that heady rush of emotion is rare gift. it is not my gift to give her. it was given to me. It is mine and I simply wanted her to know how I felt . I don't need her to return those feelings. it would be more then wonderful if she did. but if she can't if for whatever reason she can not let herself go in that direction then I would still have that time. That romantic , Lusty , giddy weekend of joy , tears, sharing and being seen for who we are. not just seen by romantic candle light but seen in the harsh glare of the the Sun at high noon.
seeker, as an artist you know light. You know how it effects objects.. The same object under direct harsh blue white light can look and feel much different, then say in the soft glow of an indirect mellow warm yellow light.
She is doing a confrence in ca this next week. she ask me to drive her to the airport Sat morning.