My therapist doesn't want to (or doesn't have time to) look at anything I bring in to a session, so it usually just stays in my bag. The one time I tried, he just glanced over it and handed it back. He just wants to talk about what's going in, not read about it. I'm better at communicating through writing...even when I'm hypomanic or whatever this is at our last session. I was like a pinball machine of ideas and stories and I don't know if any of it made sense. He wanted to see pics on my iphone of the people I was talking about, but that's it. Must be a visual/auditory type who prefers verbal communication. I prefer written communication and am almost totally visual. I don't listen very well, but if I try really hard to focus I can usually get by. Now I feel guilty that I don't listen to my mate half the time. It's something I need to work on. I'm never quite "all here."

I hope the p-doc I'm seeing soon will appreciate my charts. I don't expect her to care about my journals so I'm not bringing them. It's just like, I want the right medication already!! So read over my **** when I'm not there or something.

But it's true that they are all swamped with insurance crap and too many patients. It's kind of sad that the people who need the most help often get the least.