Hi there. I hope someone can give me a little in site on my problems. This will be quite long so bear with me.

I am a 47 yo male, seperated, 2 kids which we share 50/50, I work full time, so basically on the outside I am your average Canadian guy, on the inside it is everything but normal.

I have been diagnosed with depression and am on Sertraline for it. The sertraline works well but I would like to gt off it as I do not like take meds and hate the stigmation. Right now I have stopped taking it and it is really noticeable, I plan to make a doctors appt to get back on it.

I have a just broken up with my gf that I was going out with for the last year....she is a great gal and we have a lot in common but in bed I had a real hard time achieving an erection and maintaining it, which is very unusual for me, which of course was really starting to affect my self esteem big time. We did talk about it and she understood, and we tried to work on it but nothing seemed to help. I felt I had no choice but to end it. There is another girl in my life that I have had an off again on again relationship with, she was a contributing factor with me breaking it off.

These are the issues that I know I have to deal with...can anyone help me with how to deal with these?

1-depression, (this one I am trying to deal with)

2-I dont want to be alone. (meaning I always want someone special in my life) I am always in a relationship

3-Drug dependancy (mostly marijuana, alcohol,) I am probably a level 5 or 6 out of ten on the dependancy thing.

4-I had a crappy childhood. I was adopted, but never really felt loved or part of the family unit. My adopted mother acknowledges this and says she is sorry, I think I have mostly come to terms with this, but unfortunately is still there in the back of my mind.

5-I really do love my ex gf that I just broke up with but cant keep going with it if I cant have a active sex life.

Well thats it. LOL. I hope someone can give me a little advice. Take care and if you need to know more information I will be more than happy to provide if needed.