(((((((((((((Kiya))))))))))))) I so understand that statement. It's so hard when the pain is so deep that it's untouchable yet so huge that it encompasses my whole being. Especially when I don't know where it came from or what it involves.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. Sometimes if I can get my brain to completely focus on one thing, it helps some, for at least a small period of time. For me, it has to be very elementary such as scribbling in one small area on a paper or taking a marble and examining each and every part of it, something small and something that is not complicated. Sometimes I just have to hold on until it passes.

If you just have to hold on, we are here to hang on with you. Please take gentle care.