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Originally Posted by Berries
My inner voices say stop taking my anti-psychotic and not start any more meds, like my T and pdoc want me to.
I have to keep it a secret though. I can't tell my treaters or my family. I did that last time and the experiment was tainted.
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I had it all planned out. How I would take half my dose last night and then a quater and then none. And then I thought about the racing thoughts, the psychomotor agitation, the tummy distress and nasea, they sleepless nights obsessing and looping thoughts, the visions, the nightmares... And i thought about my mom noticing and getting worried and accusing me of stopping meds and me lying to her.
So I texted my T. I said HELP????... He texted: "Meds or Hospital.. You choose."
I took a deep breath and took my meds.
My brain is still chattereing away, but I feel like I just won a battle in the war.