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Old Jun 24, 2005, 04:26 PM
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Okay....sex can be wonderful...with the right person.
This last relationship showed me at age 54 that I am still capable of passion and sexual attraction. But I can't separate the physical from the emotional. During my last physical experience with the man who rejected me, while still in bed with him, I told him I felt "love," to which he replied, "Well, maybe you just like me." Damn! I felt what I felt. After we dressed, and I was getting ready to go, he told me point blank that he was "not in love" with me, at which I cried repeatedlly. I am still wondering how someone with whom I felt such chemistry, to whom I felt so attracted physically and intellectually, could have felt nothing! In the longrun, my feelings didn't matter, despite the awsome sex. I've never reached climax easily, but I did with him, and, at my age, it was very addicting and intoxicating. It's been two months now, and I have to let it go, but I have to admit, it has been like a death for me, going thru the stages of grief bigtime. Driving back from my classes today, I was wondering if I will ever open myself up like that again, emotionally and physically. I doubt I will.
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