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I'm thinking for now everything is temporarily done for the most part. ....and you know what? Normally I'd feel bad about that but right now I'm actually relieved. Though, in a way it makes me really wonder if I'm really just a normal person... because I have no frame of reference about how most people are in comparison to other people. Sometimes I think I trigger myself which really sucks...but I'm thinking for right now at least I can TRY and get my crap together so I can move on with my life. I've basically lived as a hermit since I've graduated and it's NOT fun... maybe now I can manage to pull myself together at least until I get a job and learn to drive...I think when I go to college I want to major in music. (The only productive discovery I've made while living as a hermit). You know...dissociation stuff aside I have other issues with other things...an unhealthy lifestyle, (pretty bad) social anxiety, and I keep on having this intrusive though but then again when I try to make said thought go away I feel panic so....yeah. (not counting my usual obsessions with truth vs lies and other stuff like that which keeps pushing and pushing and pushing things away and making things a mess. I know you guys have told me many times about how truth and reality are subjunctive but I just can't absorb that)
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