Zen,

Muffy and Miss Nora are right, it's best to get checked out by the doctor. I've had my share of "down there" problems over the years, and if I've learned anything, it's don't wait! Head it off early and it's less likely to get worse!

I also know how not knowing can get cranked up in your head. I do the same thing! I imagine how my family would react to my passing and all that. I think that's true of all of us. And I don't think it's silly to have those thoughts. I think it's normal and probably serves a beneficial purpose, too.

I'm glad you have taken the initiative to make a doctor's appointment. It couldn't hurt to be put on a cancellation list, in case you could get this out of the way sooner. Whatever way works best for you.

Imho, who wouldn't be scared and worried?? Of course you are! Bide your time until your appointment, take care of yourself, physically and mentally. Get busy, stay distracted with good things, and try to manage your concern and apprehension instead of it managing you.

Lean on your friends here, that's what friends do.

Hugs, hugs and more hugs!

notz