Thank you so much for the replies.....Lynn P. your right about the desensitizing thing....I dont watch a lot of porn but my sex life resembles a porn film....So when I met my last gf she was somewhat lacking in comparison to what my previous sexual experiences have been, I will have to deal with that. I will check the other forums and hopefully I will find some answers.

Regarding the drug usage, I am trying to slow down and I think I will start attending AA meeting, that will start bringing balance back to that part of my life.

Regarding the whole thing on not wanting to be alone, I think it comes from a feeling of wanting to feel loved to compensate from a crappy childhood.

Since I am new to this site and havent much time lately, I am going to do a lot more reading on here and start turning my life around. BTW I have booked a DR's appt for Fri. I will see what he can do to help me.

Thank you, very much for the replies, it so helps to have some sort of support in dark days like these. Please....all of you take care, and thank you again....Bill