Thank you all for your kind words and hugs.

Worked all yesterday try to get something finished, just once to get something completed. HA!

Found out this morning, tomorrow I'm receiving another 37 cartons of dialysis solutions. On top of what I now have, there will be no room left for my quilting, sewing, drawing, crafting stuff.

Might as well throw that part of my life away too. Oh well, how does that saying go, "We plan, God Laughs". I just wish he wouldn't laugh so loud.

You all say I can't give up and some small part of me tries to agree. But I'm getting too tired to even care. The "to do" list keeps growing as my energy level wanes.

Each night I take muscle relaxants, codeine, morphine, seroguel, and Valium to sleep. Each sits in it's own little pill container before me. Sometimes I just sit and stare wondering what a life without waking would be like.

Thank you all again

kebs