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Originally Posted by bananasarecool
i think my relationship of nearly nine months is drawing to a close.
he's becoming distant and we havent really even talked over the past week or whatever... he wont tell me whats wrong, he is irratable and he repeatedly called me "a bit fat"... which i dont know how to take, especially from a "nice" guy.
i feel like my heart has been ripped out and chewed up and its hurting.
im so hungry my stomach hurts but i feel too sick to eat. i havent showered in days. my hair is a matted mess and my face is pale with purple bags under my eyes.
the last person left that i wanted to be with, the one that made life feel almost bearable; almost meaningful is dissapearing and there is nothing that i can do about it. its funny how attatchments can do that.
i feel sick. i feel tired. i want it all to f*cking stop. i cant take this any more. i cant do it. its like the straw that broke the camels back and im just not strong enough to deal with this.
i think if i get lower i may have to consider a short term stay somewhere to get away from it.
its too much, it sounds pathetic but i dont think i can cope with this right now.
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(((((bananasarecool))))) He wont tell you what is gong on? I am like this, I don't like to share how I feel for fear that I will drive my loved ones away. If I do try to tell them they seem to change the subject so they do not have to listen. Does he has his own problems that he has never shared with you? Maybe?
Take a shower it will make you feel better, I know how hard that can be too. But I always feel better after I take one. Sometimes it will take me days to get it done but it sure does help.
Eating is very important. Set some munchies out where you can get at them easy. You will be supprised how much you will nibble.
Hang in there you can do this. Hugs for your day.
