May trigger

....... I must have been a very bad child
and not at all endearing
or I wouldn't have been left alone and hated
and laughed at when I cried
and hit some more
and told keep quiet or else...
Fuzzy, you know that this is a reflection on them, not on you. If you need to keep saying GIGO ten million times a day then do it. Do absolutely everything you can to empower yourself. And, yes, you can do it.

What I believe I'm hearing in your words is low self esteem among others...please use the suggestions so many others have shared that helped them.
Travel at your own pace but please don't allow yourself to stay too long at a "rest stop."

poor little whiny fuzzy
(really think my stuff isn't as bad as others here so why am I even saying anything)

Indeed, why are you saying anything? Because you know what you went through is as valid as what the rest of us went through...
We Do Not Play, Can You Top This?
The effects of our trauma share commonalities. Look for what you have in common and not for how/why you are different.
Hard to do? Yes. Can you do it? Yes. Is it worth it? Yes.