thanks bb,
I did get out with one gal from my suvivors group and we chatted for near 5 hours! we both really needed the interaction and safety.

I notice I (we?) still keep seeing monster eyes in things - everyday ordinary things. I keep talking us thru, breathing, and looking away.

Having body panic attacks, where areas long numb suddenly have waaaaaaaaaaaay too much sensation and any little thing is HORRIBLE! You know? I had to drive the whole way holding the seat belt away from me - even my own clothes were too much, but what was there to do? It was a Grande coffee day (yesterday)