((((hugs)))))) Dane. Welcome to psychcentral. I have major depression.

Wow so much to deal with! I want to encourage you to continue with the med... it might take a long time to get you stablized...and you might have to add another med or two also...but at least in the long run you'll be around to complain?!
sorry... but really. The psychiatrist of today doesn't usually do any psychotherapy... only meds and checks. I hope you can get into therapy before the holidays... that will help make them easier. So get on the list bud!

You have my full attention.

You aren't alone. There are many here who can talk with you more informatively, I'm sure.

After many years in therapy I am just now realizing how much my voice raised when just trying to cover my points... whew! I can see how it might happen as you become more and more frustrated that no one is listening to you, but only to your disorder! We are not our disorders!

Come back and post often, it's good for the soul.

Take Care (TC)