I have an appointment with a doc tomorrow. I can't figure out what to say or do. I am scared if I tell them everything going on in my head, they will just lock me up and throw away the key. I know that is unrealistic, but that doesn't change the thought.

I know it is time to share the issues I have and stop being the 'everything is great' person most people see. I am tired of faking this so called life. I am tired of everyone expecting me to have all the answers. I am tired of hating everything about myself.

I am not sure how much to share. I do not want to minimize my feelings and thoughts, but I do not want to over share and have the doc over react.

Ironically, I also think, what if they tell me it is all in my head ?

I have had bad experiences with docs who diagnose the trendy issues, medicate for the wrong problem, and who just didn't listen to what I said. So that is where most of my anxiety may be coming from, but I know I need to start this process.